The sound of semiautomatic gunfire rings out, along with explosions and screams of terror from victims of alien warfare. Then the laughter of a teenage girl rises above the mayhem as she exclaims to her online gaming partner, “Oh crap! I’m dead!”
An obese-but-energetic cat races through the house at a frantic speed, pounding across hardwood floors, pounces onto my bed, then back to the floor in a split second – for no apparent reason. Dramatic music drifts through the house, like the background music to an action movie.
I need to sleep, as I’m supposed to get up again in six hours for work, so it seems silly for me to lay here and savor this atmosphere of familiarity. But these are the sounds I’ve grown accustomed to hearing at bedtime for so many years – My life’s soundtrack!
Yet in four weeks I will be surrounded by silence. My 19-year-old daughter, my only child, is moving out. It’s not a matter of whether I want her to or not – it’s just how things are, and how they should be. When I was her age, I moved 1,000 miles away from home to a different state, a different culture. I was fine, and I know she’ll be fine too.
It’s just going to be different. What am I going to do with all the quiet? Even her fat cat is moving out with her!
So in the coming weeks, if I seem teary, goofy, grumpy, distracted, or if I seem to gravitate toward warfare of alien nature, it might just be because I’m homesick for this atmosphere!
This new era is one of uncertainty, but I can kinda see some potential as inspiration forms in my mind – ideas for things I’ve always wanted to do, if only I had the time…Now I will definitely have more time!
As new choices, changes, and challenges cross my path, this one thing I know – I won’t have to face this new stage completely alone! I have my tiny circle of friends, and HE will never leave nor forsake me!
Just some thoughts going through my head tonight…Now I better get some sleep!