Recently I faced what could be a life-altering decision. Actually two. On paper, the choices that I should make were obvious. But I felt a tugging towards other options, and peace did not come to me until after I made my decisions accordingly.
You might call that instinct. Some believe that intuition can guide you through life, if you’re quietly in tune with that inner voice.
I haven’t always been quiet enough to hear those warnings inside, telling me what to do, what and who to avoid, and decisions I should make. In fact, I kinda sucked at it most of my life!
So in my relatively recent quest to learn who I am at the core of my being, I started to recognize and listen to that “voice.” I attribute this to having gained more control over my emotions and giving less response to people and situations, in listening more than I talk, spending increased time in prayer and meditation, and in searching for guidance in Scripture. But mostly, just listening.
Something I’ve learned – If you keep having the same quiet thought that something might not be right, or it feels like your soul gets pinched when you’re about to make a certain decision – that might actually be God talking to you! You should listen, even if it’s against what you want. Because one day when you look back, you’ll see He knew best!
Isaiah 55:8 – “For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways, saith the Lord.”
Jeremiah 1:5 – “Before I formed you in the belly, I knew you…”
Matthew 10:30 – “But the very hairs on your head are numbered.”
Isaiah 49:16 – “See, I have engraved your name on the palm of my hands.”
How awesome it is to know the Creator of the universe sees me, knows me, loves me, AND has my well-being at heart! He sees the whole spectrum of my life, from beginning to end, and knows what might seem okay to me now might not be good for me down the road.
So…instinct or God? I guess it’s hard to tell. As a believer who has lived in faith most of my life (but stepped out long enough to wreck my life), I lean towards trusting that my footsteps are ordered and He will guide me if I give Him my control of my heart and life…and if I listen!
It’s not easy though, and trusting in an unseen force is certainly against human nature. But through trial and error, I found that quiet trust in His guidance is the way to live in peace.
I can’t really explain why I made the decisions I did. But for once, I just know they were the right ones.
Not sure why I wrote this. Just thinking about how grateful I am for every door that’s been opened for me, AND for every closed one!